fuck

i cant stand it anymore. why dont you trust us? why dont you believe that we really care for you? i create this blog for the sole purpose of venting my confusion. thats why its plain and dull. cos frenship comes first. deco later. i dont fucking get it. we are not bloody pitying you. we are being nice cos we care. and as frens. why do you refuse to see it? im experienced so called. i have been thru all this shit b4. not once but twice. so i totally know how you feel.so dont fucking say your alone. i know how sad it feels, how gloomy it is and when it was my turn, no one, let me stress it. NO ONE was there for me. your better off than me do you know that? you still have ppl that care for you. so why do you still want to throw yourself into this kinda misery? all you can do now is look forward and plunge on. i know you will think emo thoughts and feel lyk dying but you have to be optimistic and face reality. solve the prob with her and you will be fine. we give chances just that the transition period is always the worst. the suckiest. i know i know. so quit lamenting. i thought you are an optimistic person. the cheerful one. so show it! you know your misery is affecting the ppl around you. those who bloody care for you. you dont realize it do you? we feel stressed too and sad. you are living in self pity so much that your veiled from those caring faces. come on. you got to be strong. thats all i can say cos very much is up to you. we can show support and be there for you but theres no way we can help you stand up. you got to do it yourself and show the ppl who hate you. we are sitting on the fence so dont push us down. im trying to squish the bad seed within so dont make me let it fluorish. if it really does, i want to see how you fucking survive. i know its bad. way bad of me but you have gotta know you dont have much left. so bloody treasure us and stop making us as spare tyres. we truly care. pls dont do this to yourself. i cry when i see your posts. my heart bleeds for you. but what for when you dont stand up for yourself? show us. we love you. lots. believe in us.